a very cute museum of the worst year of my life
I didn’t make this because I forgot the good parts. I made this because my memory refused to keep the bad parts.
red lines on my neck. one eye dark and red.
say cheese ♡Jun 2024 – Mar 2026. 43 sends in August 2025 alone.
coins are scaled by dollars, so a coin is about $75, not one per send. the labels are real send counts. peak Apple Cash months: Aug 2025 · 43 sends / $1,039.39; Sep 2025 · 33 / $701.29. verified Zelle slice: 18 transactions · $253 sent / $303 received.
★ angel diner ★
order #001 · table for one
what he did, then what came next · Ed’s account
I found the lies. He denied them and hit me.
The next morning he acted like nothing happened.
He shoved me off the bed and hit me on the lip. It swelled.
He bought pizza and ice cream and wondered why I was quiet.
Jul 18: he hit me that night.
The next day, we acted okay.
The truce: respecting each other, praising me.
“That was all BS so I'd drop the investigation wasn't it.” “Yea.”
thank u, come again ♡
11 comparisons from . 7 within ten minutes. fastest measured gap: 22s.
i warned him.
read by hand from 150 keyword hits, so it is a floor. Ed said yes or offered 7 times. 266 photos and videos in the thread did not come back with the export: Ed 130, 136.
verbatim. tap one for the screenshot.
94 times somebody said “I’m done.”
86 times somebody texted again within a day.
one heart per “I’m done” (or leave me alone, don’t text me, goodbye) followed by 30+ minutes of quiet. he said it first 83 times, me 11. full = somebody texted again inside 24 hours. a text, not making up.
he ended it far more. you both came back.
20 versions of us. a new one starts after 48 hours of silence, or an ending that held 12+. Ed opened 10, 10.
70 lines about blocking. 49, Ed 21.
said “stop texting me” or close to it 121 times. 78 times the next text was his.
Ed: 20 times, 9 the same way.
keyword count. open it and read them.
every call, in order, two a second. the whole log takes 30 minutes.
23calls from in 24 minutes. none answered. Jun 27, 10:03 AM.
244calls on May 4. the most in one day.
47calls in a single hour, both ways. Jun 27, from 7:56 AM.
581 calls between 2 and 6 AM. that is 16%. so were 3,631 messages.
snapchat export. 3,672 log lines, 3,626 calls once both sides' copies are merged.
131 in all. Ed 71, 60. 29 of the 41 love days also had an ending.
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1 coin ≈ $75
Jun 3, 2024–Mar 20, 2026. one coin per outbound send. peak Apple Cash months: Aug 2025 · 43 sends / $1,039.39; Sep 2025 · 33 / $701.29. verified Zelle slice: 18 transactions · $253 sent / $303 received.
About 15 times by my count. Hitting, shoving, a swollen lip, four hits to the face.
“I love and miss you” in the same threads as “ugliest boyfriend” and “disgusting.”
De# The nudes. A “no more lies” deal broken.
Scanning my phone, asking for my address, coming back on new accounts after blocks.
Small sends, almost daily, heaviest Aug–Sep 2025.
“Because you get like this.” Pushing until I react, then pointing at the reaction.
About 15 times by my count. Hitting, shoving, a swollen lip, four hits to the face.
“I love and miss you” in the same threads as “ugliest boyfriend” and “disgusting.”
De# The nudes. A “no more lies” deal broken.
Scanning my phone, asking for my address, coming back on new accounts after blocks.
Small sends, almost daily, heaviest Aug–Sep 2025.
“Because you get like this.” Pushing until I react, then pointing at the reaction.
We start dating.
The Florida Keys: strips in the Keys, and the keys situation.
Breakup letter to SM (): coke, stripping, borrowed money, withdrawal. “I don't feel good anymore.”
Money to peaks: $1,039.39 over 43 Apple Cash sends in August, $701.29 over 33 in September. Biggest recorded day Aug 27, $122.35.
My birthday. He hit me. I fell onto the asphalt.
He begs me to apologize to a man on the phone.
Battery, dating violence. Red marks on my face photographed by the officer.
arrested and taken to BSO Main Jail. Case reference kept with the private evidence.
I write it all down: four incidents. Hit four times in the face; threats to break every tooth and my phone.
Rehab. Plan: finish, work the Tennessee opening while he is in rehab, then come back together.
He wants a motel stay to “fuck for days while he's high.” I say no and offer a date instead.
State declines the case: “no info.”
“My bf sucks.” A $25 Uber Cash charge I didn't make.
Breaking up. Still planning a weekend trip to bring him down from Clearwater.
The calls. “It's a trap.” He calls me disgusting, says I'll never have him again. “You sound psychotic.”
I call the State Attorney's Office to ask what “declined with no info” means.
He says he slept with De#, his ex, in my bed. Then says it was a lie.
Harassment after I block him: x███████████, d███████████.
“No more lies,” then nudes he swears are fake. I know my Frida Kahlo print behind him. He hits me that night.
I write my own apology too: Ra##, the bathhouse after FKA twigs, getting physical, cruel words.
“My ex hit me. He went to jail.”
I ask for respect. “OR WHAT.” Then: I don't deserve it. Then: “because you get like this.”
“You'll never have my respect.” He tells me it's over. I leave it alone.
We start dating.
The Florida Keys: strips in the Keys, and the keys situation.
Breakup letter to SM (): coke, stripping, borrowed money, withdrawal. “I don't feel good anymore.”
Money to peaks: $1,039.39 over 43 Apple Cash sends in August, $701.29 over 33 in September. Biggest recorded day Aug 27, $122.35.
My birthday. He hit me. I fell onto the asphalt.
He begs me to apologize to a man on the phone.
Battery, dating violence. Red marks on my face photographed by the officer.
arrested and taken to BSO Main Jail. Case reference withheld from the public page.
I write it all down: four incidents. Hit four times in the face; threats to break every tooth and my phone.
Rehab. Plan: finish, work the Tennessee opening while he is in rehab, then come back together.
He wants a motel stay to “fuck for days while he's high.” I say no and offer a date instead.
State declines the case: “no info.”
“My bf sucks.” A $25 Uber Cash charge I didn't make.
Breaking up. Still planning a weekend trip to bring him down from Clearwater.
The calls. “It's a trap.” He calls me disgusting, says I'll never have him again. “You sound psychotic.”
I call the State Attorney's Office to ask what “declined with no info” means.
He says he slept with De#, his ex, in my bed. Then says it was a lie.
Harassment after I block him: x███████████, d███████████.
“No more lies,” then nudes he swears are fake. I know my Frida Kahlo print behind him. He hits me that night.
I write my own apology too: Ra##, the bathhouse after FKA twigs, getting physical, cruel words.
“My ex hit me. He went to jail.”
I ask for respect. “OR WHAT.” Then: I don't deserve it. Then: “because you get like this.”
“You'll never have my respect.” He tells me it's over. I leave it alone.
every line is being read in order. no number until it is counted.
*money is still partial: 73 sends is Aug–Sep 2025 only. dots stay dots until that category is actually counted.
feelings: tender
0% chance of him. scattered healing.
Ed · healing lv. 1
0 days of peace
45 moments saved
Rejection is protection.you don't have to earn rest.
a line i saved ♡
“The grief of unlearning your touch? The grief of unlearning your voice? Finally Unlearning it all. But oh the grief of remembering it all.”
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